Wow it’s been a while, again. We just got internet on Saturday and there’s been a ton of other stuff going on too. We are almost completely moved into the house and been living here two weeks. It’s been pretty nice. We have until July 5th to get out of the other house, so we have some riffraff stuff left over that needs to just get thrown in a box and moved. We went to Art Van yesterday and got a nice sectional from the clearance center for the living room; since the basement is finished we put the old couch down there. The new couch matches an ottoman we bought from the clearance center two years ago to match the couch we originally bought and had to exchange since it wouldn’t fit into our house or door. Unfortunately that stuff isn’t returnable so we were stuck with this unmatching ottoman… it sat in the basement. So good to put it to use since I think it was about $250 (it’s big!). We still haven’t painted yet and are still debating whether to do it ourselves or save some stress and pay someone to do it for us.
As you can probably tell, not a whole lot of time to think about TTC or infertile things. I still manage to think of it nearly every day in some way or another, just pops up in my thoughts. We’re not actively seeking treatment or anything, I’m not temping or charting anything. Just the “whatever happens, happens” approach that probably won’t yield any results. Tuesday I’m going to see my regular doctor because I think I’ve got some serious emotional stuff going on right now. It’s not like I haven’t been depressed before, but I think I’m at a point where I need something (again). It’s the massive amounts of stress combined with underlying issues, such as infertility stuff. So I’m taking this route through my primary care physician in the hopes that they can just help direct me somewhere, maybe get some therapy. I can’t just keep acting like I’m fine all the time because it’s evident I’m not when I get irritated so easily. I snap at my husband sometimes, and that’s not good. I never anticipated the amount of heartache and sometimes hopelessness that comes along with trying to have kids, but then again it’s the infertility that does it all. Well, this concludes my Debbie Downer entry and update for the day!